I am amazed and disheartened at how much time I have let lapse since my last post. I think about writing all the time, but then like most of my creative pursuits, I put it off and let other things take priority or just avoid it all together. I have a paint by number that I started over the Christmas break that still sits unfinished. I have yet to start the Blog for my school website. It’s been 4 years. I won’t even mention how long it has taken me to hang up decorate wall hangings on my walls.

What is it that is holding me back? If these were physical pursuits like running, biking, hiking, yoga, paddle boarding or working out. I would not hesitate at all to do any of those things.

I started this blog with so much hope. It was something I had wanted to do for a long time. I like to think, reflect, and write. I love to learn and to share ideas. I get jazzed when experiencing an “ah ha” moment that I just want to share it. So, what is the roadblock?

As I continue to live and learn and lead, I think stamina and fatigue have played a huge part in my “blog bog”. I have been bogged down with life, trying to navigate a lot of recent change around me and within me which in and of itself has been exhausting.

I think I got tired, and when one is fatigued (emotionally, physically, compassionately) for whatever reason, it affects our outlook, motivation, self-worth, and confidence. Fear can then take hold.

I recognize I have an problem with perfectionism which undoubtedly has played a role in my hesitancy to write and create. I think I fear things not being perfect, so it is easier to just not do.

Moving forward, my new hope is to find my voice for this blog and meet my original goal of it. I am ready to face my fears, break away from the perfectionism and just go for it.

So, I am back, and hopefully ready, in this space, to continue to live, learn and lead.